May 2011

In one of my previous posts, I broached the subject of how magic was done. I promised to come back to it, and I will on numerous occasions, because it is a topic without end. In that post, I mentioned that one essential part of developing the ‘Sight’ was to understand the fabric of the universe. I haven’t posted a study group exercise in a long time. Here we are, then. Let’s get working!

The basic lesson in magic is the understanding (or feeling) of the flow that is the universe. We are not merely bathing in it. We are it. It is a complete illusion to think that we are separate entities. We are one big flow merging and melding into one another and into everything. Kabbalah teaches that creation is a thought in the mind of God. So, every thought and every wave yields a result we can see and feel. We move in ‘God’-ness.

Now, let’s turn on your Sight.

See how you do on this little exercise…

Absolute pre-requisite to this exercise is grounding. If you haven’t mastered that, go back to it. It needn’t take long. Just find your place of stability, center your ‘self’ there and anchor yourself to the earth. Breathe.

Feeling the energy

 I started doing these exercises as a teenager, in my bed at night. It had nothing to do with Paganism then. It was just the acknowledgement of a deep truth that there was something there that I couldn’t see.

In the dark, put the tips of your fingers, thumb to thumb, index to index and so forth. Slowly, move your hands away from one another, ever so slightly. Focus your gaze in the space between your fingers. As your eyesight adjusts to the darkness, you’ll start to see the outline of your fingers, like a blue-white smoke. The darker it is in the room, the easier it will be to see. It might take a few tries to start seeing it, but don’t get discouraged. And don’t panic if nothing happens. Have faith! It might be so obvious that you might miss it, ironically enough. Look at this smoke move from one hand to the other. Move your hands further apart and see what happens. Follow this outline up your arms, like an energy skin. Notice how you feel, how your hands feel. Do you see something else besides this smoky outline?

This second skin is part of your energy body. It is made of the same stuff the universe is made of.

I’m tempted to give more exercises, but I’ll stop here for now. Enjoy this and I promise to return with more practice very soon.

On a different note, I am back at work with the Cree Health Board and it is like coming home. I want to share some Cree wisdom that I have read about and that made the world sing for me today:

Mother Earth provides everything that we need and it is freely given. When you look at the earth, you can see everything that helps you – the medicine, the air you breathe, the wind. You hear the rustling of the leaves, the howling wind, the crashing waves on the shore. When I look at the earth, I see medicine in the trees. I see medicine in the sand, the rocks and water, which is life.

 Elder Sally Mathews speaking in Cree in Pikutiskwaau (Video). (2002). Executive Producers:Clarence Tomatuk and Daisy Bearskin. Cree School Board. Spoken Song Productions.


Beltaine is a time to really get in touch with that inner power of fertility and virility. It dawns on me as I am writing this post, that as Christians, it probably is one of the powers we are the least familiar with. It is really by reconnecting with the Goddess (at least for me, as a woman) that I got in touch with that incredible source of power. It is a power deep in your womb that springs of blood and fire, and that consumes everything and yet, is the source of all life. It speaks of things that are forbidden, enticing, uncontrolled, primal… It speaks of throwing all inhibitions to the wind and letting the inner fire take hold of you. How hard has that become for all of us! Why is that so? I mean, there is no need to go on a sexual rampage to achieve this. You can just lose yourself in the one you love if you have found him or her. Or there are so many ways to release those inhibitions. Dance like no one is watching. Splatter paint uncontrollably on a canvas. Make mud cakes in the garden (make sure to get some in your hair!) Jump in the pool fully dressed. Any other ideas?

OK. I didn’t do any of those things. But now I really feel like it…

What I did do: I planted my herb garden with my kids. The moment was so magical that I drew a circle around it. My son was so eager and diligent in placing the soil in the pot and watering them, my daughter was trying to ride a bike and my husband was tending the bushes. I simply whispered to My Lady: ‘This is what I am planting.’

Then we had a massive pillow fight. And we went to the country to celebrate with my family. I let the kids run around the woods, not a care in the world about their clothes, and let them ‘feed’ the ants and blow bubbles. Nothing like kids to teach you a little excess.

Blessed Beltaine everyone!