January 2011


You may have noticed that I have been less present on the blog, limiting myself to one weekly exercise and then sometimes not even that. I’ve been missing it terribly, but it’s all that has been allowed to me. I’m trying to live up to a code of honesty and that means that I don’t want to pretend to be something I’m not. I was discussing this with my friend and fellow author Arin Murphy-Hiscock who understood the pressure that comes from writing. That pressure is self-imposed mostly in so far as I expect myself to live according to the highest possible ideals, because I write about the highest possible ideals: a spiritual life that uplifts everything we are.

The truth is that you and I are not different at all. I work a full-time job and struggle to do the best by my two kids, trying to live an honorable life and to share my love of Spirit with as many people as I can reach.

The truth is that I have had a horrifying past two weeks. I’ve been vague about the difficulties we were having at home, but why hide them? If we were honest about our hardships, maybe we would all have more compassion and we would all suffer much less. So, the last couple weeks have been excruciatingly painful. Some of you may have picked up that I am having some difficulties with my son, the love of my life. Well, the whole truth is that he doesn’t speak much yet and that he’s been pulling tantrums from hell pretty much non-stop for weeks now. He does nothing we say and just screams and hits and screams some more. I know it doesn’t sound like a big deal. All kids throw tantrums, right? And a lot of four-year-old’s have a problem with parental authority, right? And I have heard countless stories of late-talkers. It’s all true. But adding all these features together doesn’t look good. I have the medical people telling me they suspect an autism spectrum disorder. And my mother’s instincts telling me it’s not that. My husband and I trying to keep the boat afloat. Then someone mentioning Doreen Virtue’s crystal children. Could it be? And then another tantrum to throw all my hopes to the wind…. So many different opinions, so many thoughts spinning in my head, so many fears taking hold of my heart. In the mean time, I have broken down at work every single day for the past two weeks. Everything was so rocky. And to add a symbol to the mix, I lost a diamond earring that my husband had just given me for our 10 year anniversary. I was outside when I realized it was missing. Chances of finding it were slim. Another symbol that it was all going downhill…

But the worst part in all this, the absolute most terrifying thing was that I lost hope. Hope has always been my weapon. It got me through everything. I looked at my husband on Friday night and I could see in his eyes that he had lost it too. I felt dead inside. Empty and dead.

My parents kept the kids Friday night in hopes that we would resurrect somehow. One good night’s sleep helped and time together as well. I also was asked to go help out at the graduation ceremony at Crescent Moon School and for the Imbolc ritual, so I was looking forward to recharging in Brigit’s company. All we needed was a tiny spark of hope. I wasn’t asking for the full flame. Just a spark. Well, a spark comes from hitting two rocks together, so my husband and I set ourselves in motion. We re-arranged the kids’ room and moved furniture around, put up nice pictures  and set up their dreamcatchers. We felt good that we were doing something, not so powerless. As I was about to step out to go to the ritual, I stepped on something metallic. The back of my earring! My husband looked down and at his feet lay a tiny diamond stud. We looked at each other and felt a great blessing wash over us. What were the chances of us finding it a week later when it could have fallen anywhere?! Right there and right at that moment.

The point is that you always have to keep hoping. No matter what. No matter how hard it gets. Because you can lose a tiny crystal in the ocean of the world and it could still wash up at your feet.

I don’t know how things will proceed with my baby. I give you all a mission to remind me of what I just wrote, because I may need the reminder! In the mean time, please keep us in your prayers!

Love and light to you all!

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My dear friends,

I hope your journey through the elements has been fruitful of revelations and discoveries. Here comes the last of the five elements: Spirit.

I don’t intend to say much about Spirit, other than it is a combination of the other 4 elements. I believe that it is only by reaching deep in our core that we get to know Spirit. And that’s where we are heading.

I attended an Angel channeling this past Friday (Time willing, I will give you guys a brief account of that evening in another  post…) In brief, the angels had one, and only one, central message: We are divine beings, full of light and powerful beyond our wildest imaginations. We are not weak, evil, confused, scared little animals. We are beings of light brought to earth by our divine Mother and Father to discover the lower planes and to fight the darkness. We just need to step up.

Many of you asked me to teach about energy and magic. Well, this lesson is the most important one I can give you. I wrote this exercise in my book and now it’s time to apply it. It is called centering and grounding.

Centering

Sit down in a quiet place. Make sure you will not be distracted and that you are comfortable: loosen up your clothing, let down your hair…
Close your eyes. Take a moment to be present. Close the door on the events of the day, leave them behind for a moment. Breathe in through your nose, hold your breath in your belly for a couple of seconds, and then exhale gently through your mouth. Release all the tension in your mind and in your body with your exiting breath. As you inhale, imagine that you are inhaling a soothing light that fills your body. This light brings warmth and a deep relaxation. Continue inhaling light and exhaling tension, until you feel vibrant and peaceful.

Focus on your body. Let your awareness scan every part of your physical being. Let your mind linger in your feet, legs, genitals, abdomen, back, chest, throat, arms, hands, shoulders, face, mouth, head… Everywhere you go, look at the energy that lies there. Is there a lot? A little? Is is tense? Volatile? Moving in waves? Pulsating? Is it a specific texture or color? What images or impressions do you get in your head? Once you have done this survey, look at your being in its entirety and notice where your energy is most concentrated. Is there a part of your body that holds more energy than others? Is there a place where you feel most stable, a place where you feel at home? What happens when you draw energy into this place? You might feel a tickle, or hear music, or feel an urge to laugh or cry…. It might be mild or it might be strong, but you will feel something different about that spot. Feel this universe within you, feel your godly light shine and take hold of you. This is your centre, the centre of your energy body. It may not be at a central point of your body. It could be in your hands, feet or forehead. Keep yourself open to all possibilities. Take a few moments to concentrate on that point, to feel the well-being of being in your sacred body space. This is where Spirit resides.

Grounding meditation

With your mind and energy focused on your centre, imagine a string of light emerging from it and going downwards into the earth, like the  root of a majestic tree. Feel your roots going from your centre and from your legs, thighs and back, like a giant tree, going through the floor, through the foundations of the house and digging through the rich earth beneath you. As you inhale, imagine the richness of the earth nourishing you. Feel the energy of the earth, the nutrients going up your roots in a trickle of colored light and filling you with its stability and strength. As you exhale, let your tension and negativity go down your roots into the earth, where they can be recycled. Continue breathing in and out, feeling connected to the centre of the earth, knowing that anytime you need this stability and nutrition, it is right there beneath your feet. When you are filled with light and filled with harmony, slowly bring back your roots into your body and into your centre. Take a few moments to get back to your reality. Listen to the sounds of your surroundings. Feel the floor under you. Then slowly open your eyes.

 

This exercise is the basis for all energy work and also the best exercise to get to know yourself energetically. I suggest you do it everyday this week to really get a sense of what it feels like to sit in your centre and to feel connected. At the beginning, it should take about 15 minutes to do the grounding. As you progress, you will be able to ground in a few seconds. That is why it is important to really take the time to practice grounding at the beginning so that you will know what it feels like to be grounded. Once your being knows the feeling, it will be much easier to get into that state.

As we go into more practical energy work, I would really like to hear your comments and questions on how it is going so I can adjust my teachings to everyone’s experiences. We are one big classroom and sharing is the best way to learn. Have a blessed week!

OK, so we all celebrated and ate more sugar than we can really handle: time to get back to work. I can’t wait to get into magic and energy work, but first we have to wrap up the elements. We’ll be spending this week with Water.

Water is the element of all things emotional. It is the flow of life, that mysterious element that ebbs and flows. You can try to hold it gently, but tighten your grasp and it just slips through your fingers. We can try to harness it, contain it, re-route it, but it flows and just keeps going. It is like our emotions: They rise and fall and all we can do is harness them and let them take us where they need to go. It is also the element of the deep subconscious, the dark pool of the mind. Water is also the element of love and compassion. These are our greatest emotions. I usually call my water quarter by asking it to bring love and compassion to my circle.

A few associations:

Quarter: West

Ritual tool and representation: obviously, water itself. Also, cups and chalices.

Archangel: Uriel

Color: blue

Water sustains life on our blue planet. We need it to drink, cook, wash ourselves. We harness it for energy and use it for transportation. As much as Water represents life and love, it can also be deadly. It can wipe out entire cities in waves of death. To me it represents the double nature of everything and how no one and nothing is only one thing. Water taught me respect for the inner wave that sustains my spiritual life, but can also take us so far away from the shore that we lose all sense of direction. As a woman, it was such an important lesson for me to learn: to respect both  my loving and destructive nature. One is not better than the other. It just IS. Water helped me learn that.

Magically, Water is used for cleansing and purification. It is used to cleanse ritual objects, ritual space and to cleanse ourselves before rituals. Often, salt is added to water for purification rites. It is a good support for mixing and brewing.  Water is used therapeutically for teas and brews. It can be used for scrying, which is a divination method where one stares into a bowl of water to receive wisdom. People may add ink or oil to the water to perceive shapes and get messages. Also, remnants of a spell are usually sent away in a body of moving water. It is a way to let things go back to the Source and let the Universe recycle the energy.

Water is also associated with the Moon cycles, since the moon is responsible for the tides. As such, Water is associated with all that is deeply intuitive.  Under the sun, the world looks a certain way, bright and alive. Under the moon, the world is still the same, but you see light and shadows in different places. You cannot trust your eyes as much and you must turn on a different kind of vision. Water and Moon are associated with that kind of Vision, the one that comes from within. It is also associated with the Feminine, since we are especially attuned to the monthly cycle.

This week should prove to be an especially moving journey. Here are your assignments for the week:

1) Journal your experience of Water. What does it look, smell, feel and taste like? What sounds does it make? Find different forms of water and contrast them. What kind of energy readings do you get? Go swimming, walk in the rain (or roll in the snow), take a walk along a river, or jump into a puddle!

2) Become Water. Go deep within yourself and reach into that state of deep emotion where you laugh and cry for no reason. Is this place familiar or foreign to you? Spend the week ‘in the flow’ of things. Let it take you over.

3) Find 5 practical uses and 5 magical uses of Water.

4) Choreograph your Water dance.

5) Find 5 Christian applications, biblical stories and legends associated with Water.

 

Enjoy you encounter with Water. May you find love and compassion within it!

Dear friends,

I would like to take a few moments to wish you all a most blessed year, filled with joy, peace and an ever growing sense of wonder in the Mysteries that surround us!

I woke up this morning from a marvelously vivid dream where I met a very old friend who told me that she had forsaken her career to pursue religious studies. As she said that, my whole being came alive and I walked up a school and asked about learning ancient languages and about studying ancient scriptures. I think this dream sets the stage for the year ahead. There may be a bit of studying ahead for me. How wonderful that would be!

I’d like to share a little New Year ritual that I do every year. I started it a few years ago and it has now become a family tradition. Every year, I sit and do a retrospective of what has happened that year. I like to draw it so that I have a visual representation of my year. It’s also a nice way to keep a story of what has happened in my life. I keep them all filed away and review them from time to time. So, I make a visual representation of the past year. It doesn’t have to be a masterpiece. It can be lines and shapes and colors, as long as it represents what the year has been like. It can also be a list of events and accomplishments, if that is more natural for you. Then, I turn towards the year ahead and draw what I am expecting from the coming months. Some things are already in motion and some are just simple goals that I would like to move towards. It gives me a focus on what I want to cultivate in my life. Because everything that happens starts with you. Change yourself and you change the world.

So set your year in motion by taking a moment to wish the best for yourself. You’ve already wished everyone else a happy new year. Take a moment to wish yourself all the blessings you deserve.

Love and light!